The time has come to send my little girl off to "school"...daycare. I tell her she is going to school. She will be 20 months old when she goes. My body has been telling me for many months that I just can't do what I do anymore. Working nights and staying up all day with her is just becoming too hard. She is older and much more active which means I need to be alert at all times, and who am I kidding...I am a freaking ZOMBIE! We are sending her a little sooner that I had originally anticipated...I was thinking more like when the baby came because I knew there was no way I would get 2 kids on the same schedule and it was not going to be possible at all to stay up all day, work all night, and stay up again the next day with TWO of them. When I say we are sending her earlier than anticipated I mean she starts next week. I had called around to a few different in home daycares (much more affordable) and we had an interview with one and I just knew that "one" was the right place for Lily. I think your instincts really do kick in. She had an immediate opening so I went with it. Jason is home Thursday through Sunday so she will only go on Tuesdays and Wednesdays. Lily and I went today to sign the contract and drop off a check and Lily went right up to one of the little boys (who is her same age, but Lily is an entire head taller than him!) and hugged him. AWWWWEEEEE...it melted my heart. She jumped right in with the kids and played on the swingset and when I told her we had to leave she threw a fit, so I know she is going to have a GREAT time. It is her mommy who is going to struggle without having her at home...I am crying just writing this. It literally breaks my heart. I have been with her everyday of her little life...what will I ever do without her all day long?! The sacrifice of going off of no sleep has been worth it to me in every way, but I also know that its not fair to her to see her mommy so tired all of the time and so boring. She is such an active little girl and she is at the age where she needs the interaction of others her own age. She will love it...right?
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Yes - she will love it and I don't know how you've made it 20 months with no sleep!!! It was hard at first, but I don't feel one bit bad about taking Lauren to daycare anymore, especially if you've found the right place. :) Good luck next week!
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